Christmas party!

Yeah, can't believe 2008 is almost done. Had our company Christmas luncheon today. Didn't win an raffle drawings..., they actually gave away couple of ipods. Impressive. Didn't think the department's that rich... of course most raffle awards are pretty cheap, but still. Anyway, although I didn't win anything, at least there was a free lunch. It's actually pretty good.

But has this year been good career-wise? It's not bad, it's not great either though. I'm certainly grateful for the money and occasionally the new experiences learned, but I just don't find it rewarding enough. It felt more rewarding to make a stupid pillow case! ;) Wife has often complained that her ex-bosses often failed allow her to do what she wants to do... well, I've been waiting for years too. After more than 10 years in the industry, I still haven't really started and finished the same project. I still haven't felt like I've 'created' anything yet. It's always been pulled to work on this part... and work on that part... an often times what we work on is in vain anyway.

Today's reading of the psalms felt exactly like wife's latest vision. From

' How long, O LORD, how long?'

all the way to

' The LORD is King for ever and ever;
the nations will perish from his land.

You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,

defending the fatherless and the oppressed,
in order that man, who is of the earth, may terrify no more.'

May You give us the patience and endurance necessary. May You also give us the strength to be able to change ourselves for the better too! We need You especially in times like these. Yes, Lord, we need you to bail us out... for You are better than any government on earth. But of course at the same time, we better wise up and stop doing business as usual too.

(Psalm 6-10, 174.8 lbs, $1.879)

Last vision from bro GD!

We have our very last prayer meeting last night. Brother GD has finally decided to turn us lose after about 2 years. Initially, he only agreed to do this for a few months... and amazingly it has lasted for years!!! I had been single and now I'm married! Although I was in Seattle at the time, Brother GD and Sister Prophet had been instrumental at getting me married! If it weren't for them, surely I'd still be single now! ;) Of course luckily I wasn't around during those times... and I didn't even really know them that well... for otherwise, wife probably would suspect that perhaps I've conspired with them to trick her into marrying me! ;)

Last nite's very last message was about preparing and watching out for our hearts. Prepare our hearts so that it's not rocky... nor should it be too shallow... nor should there be too many thorns around... prepare our hearts to be fertile grounds for the seeds of God. Yes, easier said than done..., but regardless, it has to be done! We gotta be fruitful!

Anyway, brother GD also prayed for all of us with visions... he saw wife sitting at a table with a light yellowish color table cloth and chatting with a bunch of people... I think he also saw her standing at some high up place possibly looking down on an old city or something... screaming or sighing... asking 'how long do I have to wait?' Yeah, for sure wife waited quite a bit. A lot of waiting during her ministry work. A lot of waiting for her green card. Even today, she has to wait for me on various things because sometimes I'm just very slow... But eventually brother GD said he saw a bunch of old buildings/structures will be cleared away for new ones.

As for me, he saw me walking around in some japanese style garden. A place I'm very familiar with, yet I can't get out of for whatever reason. I think this kinda showcased the difference between wife's personality and mine... When she feels trapped, she'd be frustrated. Whenever I feel trapped, I still try to enjoy this japanese garden while I can! ;) Anyway, regardless of our personality differences, in the end, Bro GD saw that place will be tear down and new buildings will be built in its place.

I've had similar visions before. Like I'm in some sort of messy market, but then it'll be torn down and a twin tower will be constructed. Hmm..., what will be built, Lord? Can You be more specific? ;)

Anyway, I don't mind the waiting, but may God give wife sufficient patience to be able to endure thru her waiting period. Finally, please continue to bless brother GD and sis prophet so that many many more souls can be bless thru them. Thank You Lord! :)

(Psalm 1-5, 173.8 lbs, $1.879)

Random thoughts...

The corrupt Illinois governor was trying to sell Obama's vacant senate seat to the highest bidder. Didn't realize this but it seems Illinois governors had a tradition of going to jail on corruption charges. Hopefully Obama's not as corrupted as his state's former colleagues...

US auto bailout package is almost ready... if I have the money, I'd buy the abandoned Honda F-1 team! ;) Honda is only selling the advance facilities for a dollar and all the debts will be assumed by Honda too! Basically the buyer just need to come up with money to keep the team running in the future... oh boy, I wish I can win the Lotto now!!!

Speaking of money, state of California is ready to run out of it too. If something isn't done soon, all the public road works can be halted as early as next week. The the state would grind to a complete halt by next Feb/Mar. Yeah, perhaps I do need to buy more Lotto tickets to help out California schools at least! ;)

Been reading the last portion of the Job today..., I've already enjoyed reading part of the bible whenever God speaks! Furthermore, the talks of Behemoth and fire breathing leviathan always peaked my interests too! Did dinosaurs really roamed the earth with mankind? Sounds like yes to me! Not only that... there were fire breathing dragons!!! Hmm... so what happened to them? Oh well, anyway, I'll just have to ask God about that later. ;) For now, we'll just have to learn the good examples that Job has done... and stay committed to follow Christ with our day to day lives. :)

(Job 40-42, 175.0 lbs, $1.879)

Long weekend!

One of my old fillings fell off, so I went to the dentist to get it fixed on Monday morning. As it turned out, the dentist told me that I have a lot of little cavities all over... thanks for not taking good care of my teeth... such as regular flossing. So I may have to pay the dentist a visit 5 more times to get it all fixed. Not looking forward to that at all.

So on the rest of my "sick day", I ended up getting my first sewing project done! Yes, after much practicing, I've finally finished my first pillow! Got many more pillows lying around, I'll be making some more trying to add buttons and zippers... I'll probably be ready to make cloths pretty soon! ;) But of course mainly I just want to do furniture re-upholstering or perhaps new curtains for our new home! Anyway, we'll see how it goes.


Over the weekend, wife for the first time saw the B-2 stealth bomber flying low around our neighborhood. Not sure what the military is doing, probably just practicing for the Rose Parade. Still, it was a bit uncomfortable though... and on Monday, an F-18 jet fell off the sky above San Diego and crashed into a few homes. A poor Korean business man lost his wife and kids just like that. The guy is a Christian..., probably a modern day Job I guess. How sad is that?

Anyway, Pastor Jim preached about 'faith' on Sunday. Saying that regardless of how 'little', God gave all of us a measure of faith. And the Word of God can help us grow that faith, but nothing beats actually practicing it! And often times, we'll be tested thru sufferings. It is times like that which will help us find out how much faith we really have! May that Korean man be able to pass the test just like Job did. May he has friends that are better than Job's friends... capable of actually comforting him.

As for us, yeah, just like God gave me a measure of desire for sewing..., and I grow that desire by reading books on sewing..., and now I practice and practice to actually sew something... and after the pillow case survived the washer and dryer test, then I know everything's good! ;) Besides sewing, may we all be prepared to put our faith to the test!

(Job 34-39, 174.0 lbs, $1.899)

Wow, game over for Honda F-1!

Last year the satellite team Super Aguri fell off the F-1 grid... now, it seems the parent factory Honda team is ready to abandon F-1 racing due to the global auto sales slow down... Staffs just got the news last nite and are now frantically trying to look for jobs in other teams... One would think Honda is in it for the long haul... aiming to win championships! But now, decided to all of a sudden to pack things up and leave! Wow.

Also considering a bunch of bank sponsorships, perhaps other F-1 teams will be in trouble too?

No wonder GM and Ford are near bankruptcy if even Toyota and Honda are struggling financially...

Scary times indeed.

(Job 31-33, 175.0 lbs, $1.999)

Sad face/happy face...

The moon and the special alignment of Jupiter and Venus caused these rare happy and sad faces! ;)

Yesterday my airheaded-ness caused wife to be super upset again. The morning after, somehow something caused me to decide to just work from home that day.

All I can say is that thank God I made that decision!

I'll take a sad and happy day over a sad sad day any day! :)

(Job 25-30, 173.8 lbs, $2.099)

Relaxing long weekend for me!

Other than the crazy terrorism thing going on at India, it has been a very relaxing weekend for me.

Wife, on the other hand, had to deal with family gatherings and teaching during the long weekend, so she probably wasn't all that relaxing... Since grand-aunt's passing, I think our family's other relatives will probably be spending the actual holidays with the other side of the family first... and then we'll have a get together of our own on the next day or somethings... They used to alternate every year... So does this mean wife needs to have double the family fun? One with mom and dad on the actual holiday... and the other with the rest of the relatives? Or should we just forget about the other relatives? Or should we not spend holidays with mom and dad and just go to the big get together a day later?

Sigh. Thinking about it is stressing me out too! ;) It's really suppose to be fun... hopefully I can just make things more fun for the wife so that she can be less stressed out.

Anyway, we also did a bit of shopping too, trying to help get the economy moving... our biggest ticket item was actually a $65 sewing machine! Yeah, I just have this urge to sew. Pretty weird. I wonder what I'll be making! Perhaps I can be making Xmas presents, but then, our economy will really tank now!!! ;)

Yeah, I'm experiencing the urge to create. My last creation was just the TV stand. What new things will I be creating next? Hmm...

Pastor Jim talked about how we all need to have a new walk, new talk, new mentality and a new look. Are we really the new creations in Christ or are we just the same old creations of the messed up world? Interestingly we also bumped into Chin this Sunday at Faith. Chin has been an instrumental person who got me to know Christ. In a way I'm kinda sadden that today, both Chin and I are now just a Sunday service attendee. No longer really plugged in to the Body of Christ due to past bad experiences.

Help us plug ourselves into You Lord! So that we may truly be renewed and become the new creations that we're meant to be!

(Job 22-24, 174.2 lbs, $2.139)